rEvEalS hErE

2011-01-01T14:22:00.002+08:00

Dedicating this to my girls:)

Words can't describe how glad i am to have known

you guys for like almost 3 years. we go through thick and thin

together every single year :D

NURLIANA BTE MIHD KAHAR! :D
Firstly i love you to the max, can?

hahah why its because you never fail

to be there for me in any kind of situation i am.

You always joke around with me and more,

You are the reason why i 'm always hyped up everyday

in school. ITS BECAUSE OF YOU!! i have a lot of things to say to you.

but words and action cant describe it!

I just wanna say thank you so much for everything all this while.

and i love you ttm :D

NUR HASLINDA BTE HADNAWI!

Let's see i love my pendek so much!! :D

You are always there for me, joke around with

me. entertain my jokes and when especially

i'm being sarcastic to you like most of the times.

My words can be harsh to you sometimes, but i hope you

know that i didn't mean those things that hurt you.

its just for fun and laughter :)

Okay, 2011 is the last year you're gg to be in westwood.

How sad? :( But we will always be tgther right? no matter what

although you're out of the schl alr.

Let's spent 2011 the best year ever tgther aite.

Nothing can describe how happy and glad i am to

have known you. :D

SITI HAZIQAH BTW KASSIM :D

I love you!!

You are the reason why i stay strong all this while

although i have minor and major problems.

You make me forget abt the problems for awhile and

give me that positive attitude!!

You are the reason why i didn't cry when i have problems.

You never fail to be there for me when i need you.

If i have to go on its gg to be a long one.

In summary, i just want to thank you for everything

words can't describe it that's for sure.

I will always love you and i will always be there for you no

matter what happened, that's a promise :D

Ovearll, in summary, i want to take the 3 of you who have

make my 2010 special. Thank you so much is all

that i can say for now. W
Let's scream cause we're going to be 16 next year :D

and luck for you N lvl and study damn hard this year :)

don't ever give up from the starting till the end of the year :)

I'm always here for each and every single one of you :D

2010-12-28T16:58:00.002+08:00

This is some of the pictures taking during my Batam trip :)

I so love it.

Facial treatment, spa, massage, delicious food awesome.

Basically i told myself this purpose of gg to Batam

is to try their food and i would give a thumbs up

for the food :)

I wish i could go there again during my March holidays :) hah

Plans/ Holiday trip for 2011 :

March: Genting maybe not confirm yet or else go Batam again.

June: Tokyo Disneyland

September and November don't know yet,

I'm so looking frward to 2011 holiday season :)

2010-12-17T01:49:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i update my blog and finally i'm back heheh.

time check 1.50am and i'm not asleep yet as usual!!

As always holidays is just about the same daily routine over and over again!!

I did the same thing for the past 2 months haha.

can say i'm becoming more like a pig yeah!!

but nvm, who cares right!!

Life this past 2 months have been just what i never expected!!

Its full of surprises!!

But one thing for sure i can't and won't be able to forget you and

that's like the worse thing. I never will and want to forget you like

ever again, i hope so i can!!

but time will changes everything.

There's this saying, ' Only with time, will love be understand'

i so believe in it!! It takes time to just find the correct love.

and for that everyone have to be patience.

okay, i'm crapping again!!

Thats all for now!!

will blog again when i feel like it yeah!! :D

Love all the people around me so much !!

And my best partner in the whole world,

Happy 15th Birthday Jia Han :D

Enjoy yeah :))

2010-09-14T15:24:00.002+08:00

Guess that my blog is really really dead!!

will only update it when i like it i guess!!:)

A new term is a rushing term..

2 weeks time EYE is starting and i'm just not prepared for it!!!

I'm not prepare for the best or for the worse.. What i can say if only

i had choice to make, i would never want to take exams!! its damn stressful!!

But what to do is already a must to take it in Singapore. oh whatever!!

I have to really buck things up.. Going to approach those teachers next week or end of this week..

okok.. lets skip all of that!!!

I really do not know why but i something is not right and

i really do not know what is it.. I wish i know it but i don't...

i cant keep on thinking. I know something will happen maybe soon or later.

I sacrifise my sleep thinking of it but those sacrifise didnt pay off i think..

i cant think of anything or anyone !! But i knw if i work harder

i will know what my dream is all about..

Some people say dream is just a dreama and it will never come true!!

But to me , dream is something that is true and that i believe!!

2010-08-20T23:55:00.003+08:00

It had been a long time since i update my blog!(:

I'm damn busy ths few weeks with YOG stuff.

There is damn a lot of homewrok to be done. so i rarely had

time for myself and homework.

Going to do everything by tmr or sunday or monday!!(:

2010-08-09T15:18:00.001+08:00

Common test is the wednesday! OMG!

Oh god please help me. I dont want to disappoint anybody!

2010-08-02T22:53:00.001+08:00

THRASH!!

You know what i really hate you.

its seriously a no point for you

to do all those stuff cause you know its no worth it.

You know in this situation, i wont take things that seriously.

You know that i will only take things seriously on certain things.

but guess what i dont care this time round.

COMMON TEST is just around the corner.

going to start on my revision pretty soon yeah!!!(:

Will be MIA during the ct week and after tt

cause fasting month and i have YOG thngy!!(:

2010-08-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

RANDOM

2010-08-01T22:10:00.001+08:00

Its been long time since i updated my blog..

Will be active mostly on tumblr aite...

will update if possible!(:

2010-07-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

Somehow i think i cant keep my feelings to myself.

at certain point of the time i have to let out some of my feelings.

But then maybe some is right i am just too ego.

I cant forget the fight that causes my ego.

But i am trying to fight with my ego.

Today was tiring but full of laughter and very enjoyable.

I really do not know how to describe today.

Most fun ever? and i just laugh folk-dance.

the formation was standardise.

and i like the ending fr everything you know.

next week is a busy week.

i am going to start on my revision and

there is fd(sec 1 2 3) rehersal on next thursday!! fuhh!!

wth is this. everything i sjust too pack!!

Oh c'mon!! give me a break. but this is sec 3 life.

Test is next week. Oh great right?

i know im damn stressful.

going to be MIA-ing starting ths few days and

next week cause will be focusing on revision and studying

and nothing else. will not care about you or problems.

will just let it be for a moment.

Created the most hillarious thngy ever

that i was laughing my ass off (i guess)

in the bus. i got wrote it in my twitter hehehhe..

I hope every moment spend is a memorable one with you!(:

2010-07-10T16:23:00.001+08:00

Going out later to celebrate sister birthday (:

Happy 17th Birthday in advanced Sister!!!

Enjoy!!!

Avoidance

2010-07-07T20:50:00.002+08:00

I love this photo. thanks to amirah who told

me too find beautiful pictures at the website.

I've just created my new tumblr.

you can follow me at

http://blue-lightning.tumblr.com

Heart is in pain. wont say it neither do i want

to see or hear anythng that regards to you..

its hurtful though. but im not feeling the pain tt much at all.

but i hope i wont see anythng tt make me remind of you.

Everythng is changing in this world. it revolve very fast.

so you cant blame me for everythng fr the decision tt i've make

cause i thnk tt is the best for both of us,

no matter how long you are gg to wait i will

never change my opinion of what ive already

given you.

But i hope i wont see your personality change.

i will like to see the individual you back.

no matter how time have changes everythng in just one go.

I hope you will be able to accept my last and final decision.

the decision you will hear anymore at all.

2010-07-07T15:32:00.002+08:00

Water droplets.

Hey in school now. having cca but then it seems that i am not doing anythng.

btw have been tired this few days. for no reason.

im stuck with the same oold thing.

i am really do not know what to do.

things is comings up. event i mean. i really have no time to relax.

oh btw lessons have been rushing and i dont seems

to be concentrating durng lessons. oh great! i must really catch up ths week.

2 test just ended. and theres anther test next week. elective geog

and maths. great right i know!!!!!

If the only thing i can do now is to reject!!

2010-07-04T22:32:00.002+08:00

YOG today,

before tt had religious class in the morning.

was lazy to go but force myself.

straight away go home had an hour sleep

and bath and meet hz and fazmie at jp.

thn take bus 181 to school.

im really pissed off with one aunty, ive already wrote it in twitter.

YOG was so-so.

i didnt talked to my partner.

but to anther team goalkeeper,

he's hot lah! hahah. gosh hehe.

Fnn competition ystd was okok.

we were talking about lesbian for ystd topic.

im really tired. gonna take a break and

do all my assignments tmr.

2010-07-03T21:08:00.004+08:00

Hey, been a long time since i update.

school started last week, and

to be frank im not in the school mood.

Nothng gets into my head for any subjects.

im really stuck. Im not sure what to do really.

going to be very busy, common test is the 2nd week of august.

theres not much time left. test is mostly nxt week.

too many thngs to do.

Had to go school ystd fr fnn thngy. overall was okay.

had breakfast at macd with haziqah aft tt at jp.

went hme and out again.

theres religious class tmr and theres yog football training tmr

in the afternn. im very tired. and mon gg out to bugis with sis.

anther tiring day, gg to have an early sleep today.

early wake up tmr at 7am.

Rejecting is the difficult thing to do.

but i have to be firm although it will hurt you damn badly.

tht is the best way that i can do

to make you leave me.

2010-06-20T18:00:00.003+08:00

Its t he memories tt is improtant right now.

looking far away. trying not to look behind.

it pains when i look behind and have to

be reminded of the past over and pver again.

when will i ever have the strength to look behind and not cry.

no one will be ever be strong to do tt.

Even though someone new came into my life, to help me

frget you. But i cant. its hard. no one can replace you in my heart.

no even someone close cant replace tt. somehow i wish tt

i could rewind time and chnge everyhng.

no i cant. whats done cnt be rewind anymore.

i must look forward and never repeat the same mistakes

again. and never repeat it again. it pains to repeat history again.

so i want to make everythng arnd me better ths time.(:

I hate holidays. it will fly very fast. boo.

theres maths lsn tmr boo..

2010-06-14T09:29:00.004+08:00

Life hadn't been the way its supposed to be for me.

unexpected welcome frm you.

i decided to just enjoy my life and make it better.

By enjoying myself and eat hahah.

all i know now is to eat and eat.

and i will put on weight if i eat too much,

Had been doing a lot of thinking these few days. So

i really don't knw if i make the right desicion.

i dont want to have any more fights between us.

Its painful. Decided to spent time with them

individually. guess tt is the best, since some dont liek having her

in some situatn. sometime i would rather go alone

without having these nonsense fight. Tired of used to having

fight with all of them. Decided to go MIA-ing for a while. befre i come back.

I seriously never thought it will be ths way. somehow i want you gone.

and i knw if you are gone you will never come back.

i am somehow tired of thinking and thinking.

somehow i wish everythng is vanished. but then

if they were to vanished iwont have them.

somehw i reallt dont knw if im making the right desicion.

will just leave it to the way it was. and just see whts the outcome later on.

furthermore thinking tooo much wont help, it will only make

you go insane. Sometimes its worth thinking and sometimes its not.

so i decided to just let it rest for a moment.

Wont drag any longer and donnt want to make it like a grandfather

story. Will surely sleep if ths is the way, haha.

but will end here . post when im in the mood

and take a rest!(:

2010-06-14T09:15:00.003+08:00

Life had been just average.had been doing the same

routine over and over again.

had yet to complete all the assignmemnt.

i am so lazy to do it. I am lazy to update my blog these few days.

will update it with new pics and when im nt lazy!(:

bye!(:

2010-06-01T21:10:00.002+08:00

Maths lesson was cnceled today.

so seat at home today by being a good girl.

3rd week is damn busy fr me.

3/4 of my all my assignments is done.

1/4 left is basically my eng.

i seriously lazy do eng.

Will only becoming back 4 times during ths hols.

meeting neena on sat to do buddy writting,

and might be meeting hz on the same day to do

f&n coursework.

I have been doing the same routine everyday.

sleep. eat. watch tv.sleep.

do hmwk. eat.

the same routne amazing. its like im

sleeping more thn 8hrs but less thn 24hrs.

hehehe.

I HATE YOU. ths 3 words really i mean it,

i reallly dont know wht to say. im

really in confused,

going to buy 2 storybooks ths june and to

finish it befre july.

write a summary and to improve on my eng.

wht sir say is true. in everythng i do

or everywhere i go i need english.

so im starting to brush up on my eng esp.

no more lazy when ever i see my eng assignments.

Will blog more whenever possible.

2010-05-28T21:20:00.003+08:00

Results wasn't tht satisfying.

especially poa. i would have pass

by a few more marks.

grr. i really had no hope fr my

combined humanities.

Eng speechless.

but i will work hard for all the subjects

during the holidays.

i will come back next term with a fresh mind

and attitude and i will work hard for

all my subjects.

i will make sure that there will be no

more "U" in my report card.

-really am disappointed with the grades.

and you have to changed.

Your jealosuy is just so high.

2010-05-22T13:57:00.003+08:00

I love the songs pyramid-charice feat iyaz!(:

wow i just cnt forget the

songs pyramid!(: which is like so meaningful-addictive

slept fr 15hrs ystd amazing- i am gg to be sick now i guess

wow! its like never had been sleeping 15hrs but

its nice though!

School is gg to end soon!

i am done with chemistry tys(hol)

finished

f&n left with a few qn i am done!

yeah . so no need to focus on chem and f&n

fooh.. hols coming and i dont thnk i can go out often

i have to STUDY!

and i am so nervous to get my results

and ths mon sec3 gg to learning journey, hope it turn

out fantastic!

2010-05-19T20:21:00.003+08:00

I still remember when the first time we met!(:

that moment was just so wonderful!(:

MYE results is out.

and some of the subjects marks were very staisfying.

but not for poa especially.

cried ystd after poa lsn as

i tink somehow i have disappointed mr chua

time and time again.

I just need to make him proud of me!

butits too late now!

i will make sure tht i will work very hard

fr term 3 and during june hols.

I just wish tt my overall marks

was just awesome!!(:

lets just wait and see

and there will be 4n periods of poa

lsn tmr due to mt intensive

fr 4e and 5n o level students.(:

2010-05-15T21:05:00.002+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday, muhamad zulhilmi bin yousof!

may all your wishes come true!

you turn 15 yesterday dah tua dah,..

dah tua mcm aku , hahah..

anyway enjoy ur bday and enjoy ur day

and year!

Achieve wht you want in life,

lastly once again HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY

laughing partner who dosent stop making me laugh everytym

during chem, ss, cme!!(:

thanks boy!(:

hope tt your leg will get well/better soon

thanks guys!

appreciate it a lot!

Anyway life had been good for me.

i have been eating whtever food tt i want!

nobody will stop me!

i am leading a healthy lifestyle!

anyway boredom will always strike now and

then luckily i have two wonderful people tt text me

to keep me entertain!!(:

have been replaying songs in my ipod

over and over again esp valentine,

when i look at you etc.

its fun to keep me entertain sometimes.

i dont want to start crapping!

got to go!

will blog more when i have the time!(:

2010-05-13T20:51:00.003+08:00

Mid-year is over to some.

but not to me.

to me the day when mid year is over is when

i get the resuts and have achieve my targets.

i hope all my hardwok is paid off..

last paper today, chemistry..

it was pretty easy as most of the qn can

be seems to pick out from the n-level

10th year series. since i practiced some of the qn yesterday

in the book, there shld be no problem to me but for some few qns.

Zull birthday tmr but not many of us can go out tmr..

so postponed it till next mon..

sorry zull cant make it!

Bt anyway happy 15th birthday!!

hope to laigh my ass off with you everytime

we are in the same class cause we are seperated most of the time

i wanted to talk to you.

but i dont know if i shld.

i know i am a bad friend to you.

i am a bastard friend to you.

i laugh my ass off to seee you the condition.

but wht to do to me you deserve it

its all because of the desicion tt you have make.

2010-05-11T22:04:00.001+08:00

Hey, MYE is cming to an end!

So excited left with oral and chemistry!

SO not that stress as last week..

im so lazy to come to school tml, but wht to do!

i have to as there is oral. I just have to bear with it!

and june hols is also coming !!(:

2010-05-09T21:01:00.002+08:00

Jump as far as you can.

and you will succed what you want!

Exams is coming to an end. with only 3 papers left.

f&n, poa, and chem.

papers have been average for me.

but one news that ive heard tt saddened me which i dont

wish to write here. i shld keep it tp myself.

i need a break. befre i start on my revision.

to do well fr the upcoming test aft MYE/ hols.

i hope i dont hav eto come often fr hols cause i need a break!!(:

i am addicted to when i look at you-miley cyrus.

the lyrics are so meaningful lah!

aww.. hahahha(:

2010-05-05T17:02:00.002+08:00

Love this girl a lot..

chatted with her after a long time..

31 may babe, i wont frget.. kau yg fifteen plak..

I love her up till now shes the one who have

been there fr me since pri school

till now its our 8years of friendship, darl!

You used to shine my life but i guess not anymre..

wht more shld i do? to make you who you are?

what more must i do to for you to accept my apology?

Its undescribable..

I really dont know what tod o..

you seems to be avoiding me now! WHo are you?!

My life is filled with colours and happiness..

i want it through out the whole of my life.

It will be awesome.

Cause i have fun/energetic people around me..

I love you peeps!!(;

Mye 2nd day was boo..

4 papers done..

3 papers was okok..

except fr el like wth , why is it damn difficult?

why is the passage so damn boring and difficult to understand?

Hope other papers will be acceptable..

2010-05-03T21:43:00.002+08:00

Many things have past for the past few weeks when i was away.

MYE is just tml. i really hope i will do well...

just like how i did for my term 1.

i really want to show people who have believe in me

that i can do it. So i am really gg to do well no mater wht.

I am going to strive all my might for ths mye.

I dont want to disappoint anymre people.

today study date with hz, farah, zul and faiz was just awesome..

love to have more study dates with them.

You really chnged. I dont even know you anymre

BESTFRIEND! what now.

you just dont realise tt you have heart

someone tt you really care.

You just ignored it. I dont know what

to say, i am speechless maybe you chnged

for one thng tt you want.

You never listen to any of our advice.

I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THIS,

I GAVE UP ON YOU!

AND I AM REALLY SORRY!!:(

i dont wish to say it but i have to.

2010-04-22T14:55:00.003+08:00

ABSENT from school ystd

and tooday E-LEARNING, boo wth boring!!

SOrry for not updating often no time!!

MYE is just arnd the corner and its time for me to do

lots of revision!!(:

The journey that i took to just meet you.

It was never the journey that i imagine!

i have to go through a very long journey to meet you

to know you but everythng is now gone,

the 2 years frendship is done up till here!!

150808-220410(: its the end no more holding on!

Let us lead our own life. lets go seperate ways!

Life for me have been packed!

my life is now mostly spend in school and

studies! like people with no life i know!!

My big day is coming on 25.04.2010

so happy what i want is just to be happy tts

all.. not asking for more!

Looking frward to it and mye is just 3 days after tt!!

2010-04-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

Rmbr everythng changes! To see my friends in the

worse state it makes me cry.. maybe we can no longer be friends!

I have been saying bad thngs about you recently..

since monday. my mouth cant stop but to say it!

I know i am bad to say tt but most of the people i knw,

even your own friends say it too.. Its hard ah when people chnged!

Changed for a reason! i had no time to elaborate on this since its getting late!

I will be off to sleep.. late day tml! school havent beeen

great for me ths few days, i can t cncentrate!!

I am having a damn stupid flu now.. headache too,... hpe

to get well soon!! i want to say a chnge in you..

dont be too jealous lah!!

2010-04-11T21:17:00.003+08:00

RELATIONSHIP

- is it worth to be in a relationship now?

wont you get hurt later on?

dont you thnk ths is puppy love?

I dont understand people..

people now a days are too young to fall in love

and when they broke up they intend to do stuff which is crazy..

ITS TOO YOUNG TO FALL IN LOVE!!

RELATIONSHIP!! PHEW!!

NOT IN IT!! NOT MY THING YET!!

I still will remember wht you said to me..
you say you wont falll in love because of wht happened
the other time.. now if you are reaallly in relationship..
i am going to throw all those stuff that you said to me
before.. the harsh words that you said to me tht make me till i cried,
i am going to say it back to you
once i know the truth ..

I am not in the mood to go to schl tml..
i am not in school mood..
hmwk havent done..
havent iron clothes and havent pack my bag!!
seriously not in the mood..
dunt feel like gg to schl tml..!!!(:

2010-04-11T12:27:00.001+08:00

2010-04-10T17:59:00.002+08:00

Love Charice songs!!

-Note to God!

-Always you!

Its a very meaningful songs..

the lyrics are so powerful..

Its a note for you!!

An important note for you to know..

I have been keepin everythng alone by myself..

i tried to hide frm everythng but i cant..

I tried to frget you and the memories..

I succeded until you mention the name again..

Then i cried and thnk of you and the

memories again.. i tried to frget but i cant

all i need is time to talk to you!!

SPOTLIHT!!

You only want the spotlight to yourself..

You want to be the outstanding ones..

to get notice by others that is wht you want..

You broke my friendship with the one that i care..

now all gone because of you..

And you want to be the main attraction..

we all know that, we dont need you to tell us!

2010-04-05T20:32:00.003+08:00

Its been a long time since i updated!!!(:

too many thngs happen...

Folk dance have been fun ths few lessons..

As usual partner is not here..

so partner with wei shen.

Have been laughing a lot

with esp faiz and zul..

thy are seriously my laughing

partners..

Mye is coming in 2 weeks fr paper 1..

and the rest if the paper in 3/4 weeks time..

time is running short and i havent start

on my revision.. suddenly i feel nervous scared

of it!! I am not ready!! gonna start revising

starting next week since i planned my timetable alr..

gonna concentrate on 3 subjects fr one week...

i hope have enuf time if i dont delay..

We are just meant to be a friend tt says HI-BYE only!!

we are not like before anymore..

it saddened me but i guess its too late now!!

i am sorry i alr hate you and i alr tried

to frget you i know its hard bt i will try!!(:

Its no more used holding on..

Goodbye good friend!!(:

Gonna miss you!

GOnna miss the thng we always do.. hehe

but i will try to frget it k..

EVENTS COMING UP:
1) 2nd month with S on 13.04.2010

2) 20 months

3) My birthday on 25.04.2010

And history will always repeat itself agian!!(:

i try to be happy when i am with you but i just cant

i am so sorry!!!:(

I hope ths would not end..

ANd ths is not the way its going to end..

2010-03-27T16:55:00.004+08:00

Lets flash memories back!!(:

its been a while since i updated..

Wed:

Lesson was just lesson at last was able to meet

neena and spent time with her..

pe was whtever..

Maths was fun, laghed a lot with

Syuhaidah, bervyn, me, and ms o..

haha hillarious much!!

Thur was acceptable:

went home straight aft poa at 2pm..

was lazy to stayback and was damn tired!

nothng much happen

Friday:

Maths(never study)

-helped ms o for the cross country the wristband

with some people(syu,susu,fienaz, jun nan(?))

and ms o herself at the mrl..

F&N

nothng much and had quiz

-recess undescribable..

went home aft tt but thn lepak abt 10min with syu hz yana and amey..

thn went to jp and took the bus 181(packed)

hz scream and thn i just squueze in..

thn took 172..

rch hme arnd 1230..

took a bath and met hz at je int at 130

went to chinese garden at arnd 145 and met up

with amey and yana...

cross country was delayed due to rain..

ths time x country didnt satisfied me..

i didnt run tt well..

thn finish x country took bus 154(if nt wrong)

to jp with hz and sha and the boys..

went to jp wanted to eat banquet bt thn full thn eat ljs full also

and have to wait..luckily we have a place to sit..

eat at ljs with

me,rauf,dinie,haziqah,faiz,hazim,fazmie,zul and naz..

ayu cam for a while and then she went off..

hz went hme to take the mrt and thn had to walk

with the boys seperate ways thn..

thn off to lot 1 to withdraw $ and rch hme arnd 0930pm..

slept at 1100pm and woke up at 1130..

seriously damn tired!!

for the first time body is aching al over..

haha!!but better now!!

homework done snd now i am off to sleep/watch tv..

kk gtg..!!(:

hope to have a wonderful week ahaead!!

april's coming!!

- 2 months with S

- 20 month with you

- my birthday yeah!!(:

- and friends birthday, yeah!!(:

hope to have a great week and month!!(:

everythng changes when you enter my life..

you are the reason tt i cried..

you are the reason tt break my heart!!

one wish tt i just need everythng jst like b4..

friend, i am trying to accept you

back but i cant.. i force and tried myself

but i cant.. i am sorry friend i just cant accept you back..

2010-03-22T22:29:00.004+08:00

Everythng happens for a reason. I know tt.

But i know we can change somethng from not happening.

I am always looking frward to monday, when people always says

monday blues but for me its the opposite. Monday is fun!!(:

i will laugh my ass off with usual peeps. Like in the mrning laughed
with zul, faiz, syu, hz..
how fun huh> haha yeah its very super fun.. most of the
lsn today make me laugh.School started off with discipline check
and its knda okay. everythng is perfect fr me ths time round.
Its the first of term 2... lesson was managable...!!(:
FOlk dance was fun and tiring, legs are in pain!!:(
no rev-up tml and there will be having briefing for cross country..

Diddnt saw neena today, boo:( will see her tml thn yeah!!(:

briefly i had my goal fr term 2 alr...(:

Everythng is packedn o more lepak etc.. study is important

so wont lepak at void deck, no faedAH!!:)

I guess if only i can be in ur positions maybe i can understand you

and now how u feels....

I have to go thru a long journey everytime

just to know somethng tt i need to know and it seems tt i have a very difficult time..

although i prefer to go short distance...

i guess i rather take the long route and

know smethng more in details!!(:

2010-03-18T20:16:00.003+08:00

DOnt blame urself fr wht is happening..

you are not the person tt i used to know..

2years ago..

you are not like ths..

before you are very strong, but now i dont seem to know you.

hai hope thngs will settle pass..

Maths supp lsn was cnceled today cuz ms o

got some urget matters..

she sms me late night!

luckily havent sleep to inform the class..

But still went back to schl for poa, learn alot..

mr chua treat us to roti prata aft tt and went hme with mr chua and syu

at 0315? i tink..

thn study at gp mcd and hme at 0445?

and thn went to ngaji and here to online..

assignments all done except for malay book review yeah!!

cool so fast finish ah.. haha..

I hope you will be strong in facing all ths

challenges .. rmbr i will

always help u thru thick and thin

i cant bear to see you in ths situations.

2010-03-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating.. Had been quite busy..
results were awesome.. i am proud of myself...
Firstly HAPPY 19 MONTHS.. CANT BELIEVE IT!!
school holidayys have started and hmwk are a lot
AND a lot of time must come back to schl.
Just now come back to schl fr maths
tml cca
and thur maths,poa and cca..boo tired...
At least i am done with most of my work.
Maths, f&n, chem & phy..
only left with mt and poa...
i guess i cant relax a lot of thnk to be done.

I guess all i can do is help a bit...
and not a lot...

Neena: dont be sad.. have ur mood back..
tell me wht happened tml..share with me..
willing to hear..

dont keep it to urself.. i am trying to help u..
let me be your listening year.

2010-03-08T21:04:00.002+08:00

Had been laughing a lot with my lovely friends.

Zulhilmi & Faiz.

They are seriously my laughing friends.

Monday is the day tt i can laughed out loud.

Not like other days in the week..

To laugh with them jst cheer me up and

make me frget abt everythng.

Laughed with them during chem, CME, ss

A lot of fun thanks you guys.

and SYUHAIDAH ALSO...

Dont be no mood anymre k..

Didnt saw Neena the whole day today, boo sad!!

FD:

was awesome...

laughed with jia hao cause of wht she said to regina..

haha... jia hao is like a pervertic.

i am beginning to enjoy my FD now and then.

It is somehow a memory to me.

I might be happy on the outside bt inside i kept thnking abt last yr.

I think too many thngs have chnged ah..

changed drastically..

whtever it is, i am going to make ths yr a meaningful and memorable one

for me to rmbr the entire of my life.

To just look into your eyes in the mrning.

To really feel and look into your eyes fr 30 sec

it makes me cried. Somehow i can feel

the unhappiness in you and you feel

uneasy somehow. I cant help you anymre.

we are no longer like b4 i just hope the best fr you.

I can feel and see everythng from you r eyes.

I do not know wht to say anymre.

Nothng can say how i feel like rite now.

I just wish if i have just one more opportunities to look

into ur eyes again fr 2-3 min and feel everythng mayb i can help you.

Somehow i jst cnt frget the past with you.

2010-03-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

I am used in being LEFTOUT!!!(:

- i hope you will be okay?

same recess with neena and

sit with her today..

Syu only come aft recess...

Had photo-taking(Awesome)

and also IC size photo.

Had a lot of thnking with syuhaidah just now,...

Film Enrichment was enjoyable

and scary(movie)

Accompany syuhaidah as she took

her chem class test 2 aft it.

at 5.00pm

it was seriously raining heavily.

Went JP with Susu(Sufiah),

haziqah, Syuhaidah, Syafiqah.

Me, hz n syaf eat ljs and thn head hme..

Many of people life have been difficult.

Wht i could say is tht stay strong..

i know you can do it..(:

2010-03-01T21:33:00.002+08:00

Cute Right the baby!!(:

The four sisters...(:

Some of the common test paper have been goven back.
Seriously i jst cnt take it.
I want to pass everythng with B3 or B4.
bUt soem of it i get it jst pass or failed by 1 mark(geog)
or not a very well done pass...
I hope my other papers will improved...(:

FD was awesome.. bt it is jst too difficult..
It is complicated... I do not know..
maybe slowly ah, i need o be familiarise with the steps..

Everythng have been packed for me.
I have not much time for anythng.
Everythng are packed. go home quite late everyday.
Gosh!!(: tired.. i really need school holidays were i can sleep
more than 12 hrs. But then, there will cnferm have remedial...

Everythng is stressing me rite now...

Nur Haslinda Bte Hadnawi:
Aww wht you wrote in your post abt me was really sweet..
I know you thnk of me tht way and i dc..
But at least i know how you feel abt me b4 and now
your thnking abt me have chnged and i am glad tht
it happened!!(: thx a lot my girl...
I know after wht i've done to liana many people will
chnged their perspective
abt me and thnk me negatively...
And i am glad tht you neena have chnged...
We will jst wait and see who is true to us and
meant a lot to us and which
friends will go thru
with us thru thick and thin, haha!!(:
I will love you walways...(:
So does to SYuhaidah and haziqah.
My love for you three will never decrease bt
it will always increased everytym..single tym..
Love you.

2010-02-28T13:18:00.002+08:00

I miss all those memories i spent with you.

It hurts me when i will slowly need to forget

all those memories. I really do not know.

I dont have anymore strength to face ths challenges in life.

Its only the strating of the year, only abt 3 months past

and i have to face ths cahllenges, OMFG!!

Today really marked the 4months not contact-ing you.

Somehow i miss those times sometimes i feel like erasing it!

I don't know friends are like this.

Everyone changed. Including you, it hurts to see you ths way.

the way you treat me.

I am in a relationship with NUR HASLINDA BTE HADNAWI!!(:

I just love her to the max somehow.

She is really a good friend. I wonder why some people

dont know how to treasure her. She is the best

Maybe what Syuhaidah told me all ths while is true.

Later they will see who are their true

friends tht will go thru thick and thin with them.

You know i really do not know wht to say

anymore. You guys are snatchng one by one and

making them be bad....!!(:

if thts wht u like be it lah.. i thnk most of us can see it alr...

who is the best for each other.

I have 3 people who care for me

They are Syuhaidah and Neena and Haziqah.

thanks for being there with me thru thick and thin..(:

I really love you guys to the max..

no word can tell me how greatful i am to have you guys.

2010-02-26T22:17:00.002+08:00

Chatted with Nur Atiqah Just now

- keep quiet okay?

dont tell anyone...

Currently Chatting With Irfan Azali

- He is a very sweet guy somehow...

hhahaha... no wonder fard is very lucky to have irfan as her bf..

- Irfan really kills my boredom away haha..

sonce i had no one to chat with ,....

CT is over and there will

be stiill lots of test s coming up!!(:

Will be consulting respective subject teacher now and then

with studdy girl, haziqah!!(:

2010-02-23T19:45:00.005+08:00

English CT ystd, i frget to out the date!!

GOSH!! how oh my god..

what is done is done, it cnt be undone.

Next was chem test, it was average lah..

since i got study. i know how to do some of it....(:

except last page.

then had f&n quiz i got 9/10. i thnk i can get full marks haha...

ystd was just ystd. nthng much happened.

Me and SYu have been spending much time tgther..

had stomach pain ystd, it was terrible..:(

Had physics CT.

It was seriously easy excpt on the light part.

Most of the qn had been gone through and

do it umpteen times...

lesson was average, but tried due to the lack of sleep

and too much of studying/memorising.

Lesson was acceptable!!

Tmr, will be having Maths & Geog CT.

hope to do well, ok gtg off now

i am going to study for geog.

dont want to fail. maths done with revision.

hope will do well, heheh!!!(:

Be completely humble and gentle;

be patient, bearing with one another in love.

MAKE every effort to keep the unity of the spirit through

the bond of peace.(:

SIck today during school.

feel like vomitting and had diarrehea(dont know how to spell)

It just sucks, reached hme and i feel so tired.

hope tmr will be better!!(:

2010-02-20T18:09:00.002+08:00

Somehow suddenly i miss you.

I am seriously in love with the song"crawl"

it is just so nice.

Saturday is just saturday!!(:

Monday start of common test.

Mon i'll be having, ENGLISH
CHEMISTRY AND F&N AND MATHS.

Phew so many test, dead!!!

I really hope tht ths test really make a different

i really want to pass all my test,

I am done studying, chem, english, maths class test

ss only.

Then phy, f&n,geog havent

oh god!! how how!!:(

Won't be updating during the CT week!

tags will reply soon!!

Oh yeah, keep my tagboard alive!!

OKOKOKOKOKOKOKOKOKOKOK!!(:

BIRTHDAYS:

Happy Advanced 15th Birthday to Haziqah Johari

(madrasah pal)

-21.02.2010

Enjoy your Birrthday!!(;

Happy Super Advanced Birthday to Syahfurah

(pri& madrasah pal)

-22.02.2010

Enjoy ur birthday!!(:

Thats all for Feb Birthday!! Love you

2010-02-18T17:32:00.003+08:00

Okok Jump shot!!

My face look very dark!!
3 mad girls hehe!!(:

Hmm, okay basically today is just average!!(:
But i like POA.
Sir, was very funny today like seriously lah
he make all sorts of jokes
even though i feel very sleepy after phy
and during POA sir funny jokes etc make me awake and i am not tht sleepy alr!!(:

MOTHER TOUNGE:
was boring for the first time i did his work.
And i really hate mt. He cant teach proplerly!!:(
English:
was acceptable, doing thngs for proposal
for common test, hope to do well haha..
Break:
Nothng special, but i was laughing
my ass off when i saw hazim doing smethng.
Maths:
Bored!! No Ms O..
She will only come back on monday, sad sia
i havnt been understanding wht he taught me
fr part 2.3 of maths confusing
Physics:
Tired, sleepy!!
Got back phy class test i passs..
But not a well done pass, 11/20!!
should work hard on improving so wont fail science!!
POA:
explain on top alread!!(:
After tht sit with bervyn, titus
and darren and 3A. bervyn, titus and darren
is jst pissing me off!! kidding
thy keep on making me shouting
esp bervyn and darren.didnt go ss today, not in the mood.
thn walk walk with shahirah and talked with nazrul.
Seriously i agree with you he i bossy!!(:

Waited for hz thn sitted outside schl
with hz, conroy, neena and amirah and jia han.
went home 10minutes aft tht.
Saw haniss and the boys playing soccer.
haniss annd me were talking and she was like
pulling my hand and we hug when
i am outside th schl and she is inside the schl!!(:
HILLARIOUS!!(:

headed off and rch hme arnd 4.10pm.
saw ms o notes and studying. But i still dont understand!!:(
gonna sms ms o later
so she will teach me online.
thru MSN haha!!(:

Maths classtest tmr and hope to pass.
Ms O told me ystd thru text tht the
paper its easy so i thnk its easy..
but stilll i need to study rite...
ok, bye off!!!(:
gouing out for awhile and will online at night!!(:

I survived the 2nd day!!
I like the way ths is going, haha!!(:

2010-02-17T19:32:00.003+08:00

Today was basically awesome.

3rd sis is absent from school.

Had a lot of fun laughing my ass of with azura and hani.

They are the best!!(:

I survived my first day.

Syuhaidah tysm fr being there for me.

Ms O is absent again. so it means

maths lesson is with mr chan(?)
Idk i still prefer ms o than anyone

who teaches me maths. She is just the best.

Maybe gonna sms her soon

to ask abt her condition hehe, so good!!(:

I SURVIVE THE WHOLE DAY
WITHOUT LETTING OFF MY ANGER!!(:

Now waiting for that ass

than online, i really need to talk to him/her.

I cant sms him/her

2010-02-16T19:55:00.003+08:00

I will miss all those moments we spent tgther.

The six of us. For Sure i will not forget everythng.

I have made up my mind.

& idk if i make the right desicion

i am just confused.

Many people now might hate me,

and i know why i understand.

To my bestfrend than to a normal frend,

i guess ths is where the both of us are fated.

Maybe just frend a nrml frend.

I guess ths is the best for both of us.

I will not forget the sweet memories i spent with you.

Through out the whole 3yrs of our friendships.

You are a great listening ear to me

i treat you like a sister i could depend on.

Lately for wht happened, i guess

we are just nrml frend, who will just say hello

and smile at each other.

For wht happened lately, a small

matter changes everythng to a complete zero.

I hope u understand my situation and

i will not forget everythng i shared with you

for the past 3 years.

Maybe slowly i will forget everythng.

Frend,

Find someone better than me.

maybe similar like me,

who can joke with you

make you smile and give a cheery day

to you. Ths frendof you can no longer do it

to you and for you..

She have gone go away from your life.

I hope you can find someone better

than me tht can do the same happiness to you.

I am no longer by your side.

I hope you will be okay,

Try forgetting me, okay frend.

This is the best for us.!!

will miss everythng,

I have lose 2 frends that are so special

to me. Because of my doings i have to lose them.

2 frend of mine, slowly forget me.

Just treat each other as a nrml frend and

not more. Try to forget everythng.

Act like as if we never met..

2010-02-16T18:41:00.003+08:00

Deleted my post!!
Sorry if i have hurt anyone esp haniss and
amirah, just forget wht i said!!(:

To the guest who tag my tagboard:
Who are you?
why you have to put your name as guest
and not put your real name??
Dont intefere.

To all whom i have hurt. I am
deeply sorry. Maybe i was too angry tht
i wrote everythng. In my blog, facebook etc.
You guys might not like me anymre. IDC!
As long as i succeed in life its okay!

Once again sorry amirah& haniss to
get you involved when you dont
know a thng when i tot you know.
Deeply sorry!!(:

2010-02-15T19:55:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Mom!!!

Happy 52nd Birthday(:

Celebrate mom advanced birthday yesterday,

when her birthday is actually today!!(:

Celebrated at sakura international Buffet

at Dhoby Ghaut, The place is seriously nice

but the food there not as many as at clementi!!(:

Then headed to ECP yesterday since aunt was there.

I enjoyed myself!!(:

In 2 months and 10 days its my birthday hehe!!

Happy Belated Chinese New Year

to all my chinese friends...

Gong Xi Fa Cai.(collect lots of hangBao okay)

Happy Belated Valentine's day!!(:

13 Feb is the first day when me and syu ______

Okay pictures of yesterday will be uploaded

when 1st sister uploaded it since i am

quite lazy...

Today went to cemetry and

then to have early dinner at BG...

Now blogging and going to off

soon going to study fr CT and Geog class test on wed.

I seriously have had lots of sleep these few days.

& i dont feel like going to school on wednesday!!(:

Tag replied:

LiKhim: Happy Valentine day&
Happy Chinese New year to you!!(:

Gong Xi Fa Cai

2010-02-10T21:12:00.003+08:00

Ignore my face

* focus on yuling and HuiMun

The pretty people!!(:

For the first time i am the first

girl who have high score for

chemistry test. mens 2nd in class fr tht paper

cuz me and jia han have the same marks.

I hope i will be able to keep up with the standard fr my

common test and all the other test.

Seriously i am becoming to hate you.

I wish i could slam u down and

kill you i really dont know.

When i know wht you say abt me,

i realli feel hurt and cried.

Luckily there are people arnd me who

cheer me up and help me with the problem, the

solution.. TYSM yeah peeps!!(:

Tell me if i should give up on you.

3 of my frends are giving me problem.

1 of them meant a lot to me. who chnged my life

now is like idk(describeyourselves)

and 2 more my own (idk) say smethng like g mampos

(go and die ah) who are you to

comment on me? you want to talk to me to face to face.

I will tell everythng how i felt frm the first start to the end(A-Z)

You know you break my heart seriously.

If you dont care for me i will do the same thng to...

Its just the best and fair!!(:

Common test in 2 weeks time..

(BUCK UP NUR NAZIRAH!!) you can do it!!(:

Tag Replied:

Yuling: okay i will ink you too okay!!(:

You are link.

Hz: I will tried to cheer up when everythng is okay!!(::

2010-02-09T20:20:00.002+08:00

Things do changed a lot these few days.

Everyone knows friends don't do that.

How could you break my heart?

You know he's everythng to me!!

With no reply from you, it just sucks!!

You told me to just chill and forget it but what now?

I always keep quiet but then you take me for granted.

You treat me like as if i am invisible.

You throw me one side.

With no reply from you everytime, shld i jst give up?

Lately i have been thinking, i dont know if i should

tell you or not? seriously i am tired!!

It seems hard for me, one by one you are leaving me.

Friends are like this, i think i rather

have a new friend that to have you.

I have enough of crying.

For the first time i dont cry for a friend, it means

just this you dont really care for me

and you are nothng to me anymre.

Everytime i see you, i really

do not know if i shld tell you ths.

No one seems to know it.

I am really very paiseh!!:(

But with no reply of msg frm you etc,

it just hurts me even more.

I have been keeping ths fr 3 years and not a single

bit change, i do not know abt you ah.

When i see you, i sometime hate you sometime idk...

Tell me one thng, shld i tell you?

And i really do not know how you would react if i tell

you abt it. It just scared me....

* PHEW too many thngs happening!!::(

male me more stress

2010-02-08T19:56:00.001+08:00

Tag replied:
Finaz: hello Nazirah! ^^ get well soon
Nazirah-Finaz: tysm
J-ULIANA: LOL. Tagged (: HI!
Nazirah-J-ULIANA: thx fr tagging

Aishah: hey bby

Nazirah-Aishah: Hey!!(:

Syarafina: Hey nazirah!!

Nazirah-Syarafina: Hey!!(; loves

Liana: hello dear

Nazirah-liana: hi!!(:

Aiping: Hello nazirah

Nazirah-Aiping: Hello!!(:

nina.: my Os was fine dear(: and thanks for asking, that was thoughtful of you(: i managed to go to a poly, so thats great(: hows sch? wooo sec 3 sdventure camp! its gonna be fun, trust me(:

Nazirah-nina: oo, i see. yeah i had lots of un during camp(;

Syarafina: Hello ! relink (:

Nazirah-Syarafina: okay sure,... i will link you asap!!(:

syu: yaw nz! ur tag below, isit true??

Nazirah-syu: yes.. i am tired of being stupid in their eyes.

HuiMun: Hello!!!! At last i found your blog!!!! Taking you asking me to take pic with you too.:)

Nazirah-HuiMun: HI!!(: yyour welcme!!(: rmbr to linlk me. ILY HUIMUN!!

Amirah: yawyawyaw! iluvyou. tagg huns

Nazirah-Amirah: love you too(:

neena: eh relink la . http://www.un-beautyful.blogspot.com/

Nazirah-neena: okay sure.. when i free

YuLing: you are welcome . i have fun too !

Nazirah-Yuling: hehe... (; love you...

Likhim: Tagged ~ !

Nazirah-Likhim: thx fr tagging!!(:

syu:YAWWW! haa.

Nazirah-syu: herhehhehehe...(:

I had gay day today(sarcastic)

Seriously i hate you. Dont blame

me if i choose a new frend, rather than you..

SERIOUSLY I HAD ENUF OF YOU

2010-02-07T12:21:00.002+08:00

The sunset/sunrise is very nice!!

I wish we have longer time to stay at tnajung piai.

Its an experiance once in a lifetime..

SOme of the obstcales i got to overcome it but

some, it just take time...!!(:

all tags will be replied in the afternoon!!(; ...

I am still hurt for wht i say..

Ths time i am really true!! i am serious

i would rather have a new frend thn you!!(;

2010-02-02T21:56:00.001+08:00

I will miss blogging for 3days hehe!!(:

Sec 3 will be off tmr

for their adventure camp..

3days 2night!!(:

So wont be updating till saturday1!!(:

Bye i am away, MIA-ing!!

But just keep my tagboard alive..

OMGOSH hope it will turn out fun

and hope tht i enjoyed myself..

I need to re-check my packing list

so wont miss out anytng!!(:

2010-02-01T09:13:00.003+08:00

I just love ths pict.

We are so bonded, cause we have been

tgthr fr 3 years...

This pict naz, faiz and zul and haikal funny ah..

It have just been an experiance a fun time

to have met them and share the joy with them.

All of them are like brothers & sister to me.

They are jst sweet people...(:
Seriously we are so bonded, to me there are nothng

but jst a friends and brothers and sisters!!(:

*LOVES*

Will update at night or wht when im free..

Going to packed my bag for wed camp...

so excited gonna play mud woohooo...

Camp is drwaing near....and i hope

my camp is jst tmr!!!(:

2010-01-30T18:07:00.002+08:00

Picture taken during ITE visit!!(:

Jump as high as you could,

shine and bloom(=

Nur Nazirah, she is fifteen ths

year when 25th April come!!(:

She is a spoiler, She never did make anybody arnd her happy

and feel enjoyable but instead she

make the people arnd her sad and angry!!:(

She shouldnt have known the person arnd her,

the people arnd her is good to her but ths is the way she treated them.

She shouldnt have met them.

Maybe i am only good by hurting them,idk!

They shouldnt have met me,

especially to a few of the people who i have

make them feel miserable arnd me..

I am sorry, for what i have did.

Maybe i am not someone who is good for you.

Especially to Mr.T. I dont care abt D,

but now i care fr mr.T.

Time changes that make evrythng arnd me change.

Everyone is given a chance to develop and

go as far as they could....

They must be given a second chance,

but sadly d didnt gave me

the 2nd chance. I do not know how shld i

react and feellllll....... See ya soon...

Yesterday didnt come school...

Monday also wont be coming to school

Not sure abt tuesday!!(:/:(

2010-01-30T13:19:00.004+08:00

Hey readers.. didnt went to schl ystd..

stomach pain ah...

did went to the clinic ystd but

ystd there was no doctor the whole day...

so i only went to doctor today and get mc fr today

but mom did wrote a letter to me...

OH btw HAPPY belated 15th Birthday Faiz!!!

may all ur wishes come true!!

enjoy ur day and year ahead!!(:

Nothng much happened ths fewe days

but you know tons of exams is coming up

and common test as well, its just driving me crazy..

Sickness sometimes really bring you down..

and makes you moody..

I guess that thinking to much abt mr T

pains my head huh?

it sometimes make you cried and etc...

I still remeber wht MR T used to say to me...

everythng, his contact numb, his msges

wht advices he gave me, everythng is just a thng to

remember. its just difficult fr me to

frget him huh, aft almost a year+++

knowing sometimes it hurts..

Ite pictures i am going to upload it aft ths

if fb didnt make any problem, hehe..

off people... going to blog again soon..

people keep my tagboard alive okay

although i didnt update often, ihope my

tagbord is still alive!!!(=

2010-01-26T19:35:00.003+08:00

Life had been rather hard for me this few days...

Packed timetable, supplementry lesson wow!!!

packed giler, i dunt even have the time to approach a

teacher if there is anythng i am in doubt with the subject..

Monday lessons ends at 0230, and Nyaa fd starts at 0300pm

And ends at 0500, Tuition after tht ends at 0730

Tuesday : Lessons ends at 0300pm & there is film enrinchment

programme till 0500....

Wednesday cca eends arnd 5..

Thursday is the only day i finished early at 0200pm..

Fri same as wednesday.. Packed giler... sat break and sun strats over again...

I guess i wont be spending much time with frnds hope you guys understand..

will only spend with them during break etc..

After school cant make it!!!

I tried not to care etc when i see you but i cant tahan

you know, it just makes me want to cry more....

To see how happy you was, it makes me happy on the outside

but not on the inside..:(

I would be really happy if things dont turn out the

way it was now...

I tried to be perfect, but i can't...

I tried to be who i am but i can't...

Past is past too many memories to forget but i can't...

I just tried to changed and make you realised...

But when i came to think again

maybe i am better off without you anymore!!:(

2010-01-23T14:22:00.002+08:00

Borrowed this book frm the

school library yesterday and now i am

at chapter 5..

the book is quite interesting.. some

of the part really make me cry..

This book is really sweet...

"LAST KISS OF THE BUTTERFLY"

I just want to asked you,

is there really no more space for me

in your heart.. You lied to me

when you said we start afresh, rite?

Lets start from zero can?

tons of hmwk and test are waiting for me..

revision, hmwk, etc

omg so stress.... upper sec..

mon there is nyaa fd silver,...

so looking frward to it lorh..!!(:

there is one special girl joinig nyaa yeah!!

2010-01-20T21:57:00.003+08:00

Only 3 days of school and there is like a lot

of things and test that must be completed(WTH)

stress sia like tht, ths is wht it called sec 3 life..

its a really tough year huh?

Stress: My god.. cme just taught abt tht and

now i am feeling stress, seriously ohmy gee...

i think becuz of mr neo who bring up the topic

about STRESS....

I really have to motivate myself to stya strong and cope ah...

WOnt be updating 3 days frm nw, concentrating on studies..

We seems to be drifting apart.

We seems to hate eac other even more.

IDC i am going to be thick-skinned

and act like as if you never knew me

and enter my life...(:

Cried: I have to forget you.

I ahve to forget your number.

I have to forget our memories

Its all past, its time for both of us to lead our

own way and have the best in life.

Phone spoiled, so wont be able to contact people

for the meant time. less msg thn...(:

Many thngs have chnged my life for the past

3 weeks of school... I get to sense that

this year is going to be difficult..

Chatted with R just now,

and to me is that while i was chatting with

her i feel so calm and so relax no

stress i like it, i love her so much..

going to look frward to talk to her in schl

and msn to release my stress...

TYSM, R!!!!(:

2010-01-19T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hey there, hello!!!

won't be updating often now busy..

scheduled are tight....:(

I just like today pushball, we are so united except fr one

or twoo, so wth you know....

wont elaboratte much why we have to stay back today..

dunt want to be reminded...

just posting to keep blog alive ah... people

do tag more aites... dont let it be dead too....

basically i enjoyed today...

i see less of you in school, which make me happy...

for idk wht reasons..

but it just make me feel grate and happy not seeing your face...

I am learning to let you go bit by bit....

I now learnt to forget and forgive even though i hurt much...

See, there is two-sodes of a coin right?

SO we must always thinks positively and negatively

so it will not really affect us...

Hahaha, sorry to you, i cant hold on trying to let you go..(:/:(

2010-01-17T16:41:00.003+08:00

Many things changes in life...

I guess that there is no used anymore

thinking about you...

Its useless....(:

I rather be happy then have you over and over again

hurt me. Its like you think i have no feelings or wht..

But now i am trying to be a girl who is

heartless/ no feelings..

By that maybe i will not be hurt*EVIL LAUGHS*

One more thing is not used holding on.

And I really Regretted not making you suffer and

I really super regretted not making you cried, Ass

Currently i am done studying fr chemistry(Covalent),

FOod& Nutrition(Chap 2)

And i am done with POA. But qn 3 idk how to do.

Short post for now.

CHemistry/ Love are meant to be gone..

It will only hert the people

you used to care & love(:/:(

2010-01-16T16:25:00.004+08:00

We used to sms for hours.

We never failed to sms each other/

ignore each other.

We used to walk past each other.

You are the one that lightened up my day.

It saddened me when the people you know become

the people you don't know.

Even elephants can walk past the friendship between us.

It means there is a really big gap in us.

I am sorry for all the things i did to you.

Its hard for me now.

We always share our problems.

But its all now memories.

I have to erased it.

memories are meant to b e erased and

not remembered for me.

Its worthe to know you for almost 2 years.

You leave me for a reason.

And in life there must be areason.

Over and Over again i keep on thinking.

Over and over again i cried.

Its no used holding on.

We changed, and maybe we will be better without each other

in our life. We have grown, so we know what is the best

for us. I really do not know why it have to end up this way.

It saddened me. I wish we never had to

leave each other anymore/forever.

I have wrote everythng i need to say at my

private blog, personal..

which meant a lot fot me..

I wish you the best for the future a head.

Maybe i shouldn't had known you at first.

You should know my frend. With her you can

joke and laugh arnd

that is the same thing we used to do...

Hey guys go and look at my tumblr.

http://loved-nazirah.tumblr.com

2010-01-15T20:18:00.002+08:00

Ths week can be said i enjoyed myslef at school...

I got english, poa and idk wht to finished ths weeksends.

and there will be chem, f&n and ss test.:( sigh havent study

going study on f&n and ss thn chem....

15 January meant a lot to me.. But i guess it ahev all gone to

the drain for good i guess.. i can no longer tolerate it...

its no used i guess ah... seeing your face hurts me a lot you know...

it hurts to see your face.. maybe its going to be my last and the

only time that i have to said ths in my blog if i am not wrong ah...

i would my last time saying ths ah... cuz i can no longer tolearte it..

if i have the time to post more i will do it tml...

tell you more info... i guess knowing you has been much fun time for me..

i will not frget all the memories i haev with you..

no longer.. i hope you will too..

* details more tml*

I just love my ft.. he is fun to be with and furthermore i am

his english rep... i always make him mixed up my name , amirah and yana...

and i also mixed him up our register number..

when i make him mixed up my name and reg no.

i myself will get mixed up,lol..(:

ok thts all for the time being..

2010-01-13T20:13:00.004+08:00

hey readers finally now its time for to use the comp.

Its been a long time since i myself update..

thanks fren, for upfdating for me...

this few days had been rather busy.. sometime

lesson even ends at 3.00pm,

strating from tml onwards will be approaching teachers to help me out in studies.

just now during geog and ss

moodswing much becuz i was reminded of the past..

i just suddenly remembered everythng we have gone thru, thick and thin...

seeing you make me almost cry just now and when my fren

say ur name everythng remind me of you and the past we had.

its beeeen too much for me.. i just cannot see you and hear your name.

OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME!! i know behind everythng that must be a meaning to it

You and me. How sad when you have to leave me.

but do i have to choice to make you stay?

Everythng now is gone.

It took me 10 days to know you.

16 months to know you almost inside out.

& the sad thng was tht i will take me

16 months to forget you. I guess its no use already.

I don't care if you play a fool with my frends or what,

but i just want to say this if you really want to leave me i am

fine and i will be strong. I will prove that without you i can

still survive and stay strong. Everythng has just gone to drain.

But do not ever let me see your face ever again.

It just hurts me.. To see your face it just remind me of our past

the downs and ups we have gone thru.

But one thng i want to say to you it have been great to know you.

Inside out, those memories might or might not be in my heart and mind anymore.

I am really sorry!!:(

I just dont like you , your name and everythng relating to you.

Please do not ever let me hear anyone saying your name

Please do not act bossy or be jealous.

You have ur own ability.

you just act like a leader when you dont..

you try to control everythng including our life.

please lah look urself in the mirror!!

Have been a wonderful 3 days so far.

been laughing my ass out with hz, yana, amey and haniss..

hillarious much, remember wht i wrote on the table just now guys with my hands!!(:

I hope if we were to end, i hope you will have a better life!!

I wish you all the best!!

i do not know what io shld regrett you anymore...

cause everythng i sjust tooo hurt for me.

If there is time i will update and tell you more in details!!(:

(toodles for now)

rolling back!

2010-01-12T20:51:00.001+08:00

Trust me you are not alone girlfriend.

Oh hello , im not Nazirah , im her friend (you dont have to know who). Basically im updating cause she asked me too since its gonna be dead anytime when im not here to revive it. She's busy with studying , tuition and stuffs so yes she has no time to blog. Perhaps you'll see me updating for her but not everyday lurh! -.- So yes had a great laugh with her just now after class ends . Trust me you'll like her although you know her voice is loud cause im so luvin her now. (im not lesbian but as a friend i do love her) Well im just crapping here , theres nothing to blog so ill end here. And peeps do keep her tagboard rolling dont make it dead. Thank you lovely people.

Okay , goodbye :)

2010-01-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

I guess everythng have to stop either way.
& i have to be frank with myself.
I have to be strong. Just let bygones be.
But its just too deep for me, to accept you back!!
I really do not know. If ireally should leave you
alone and leave yo far or be together back.
I now acted that you and i, our freindships have broke.
Broken into thousands/milllions/billions of pieces.
I really do not know if we are over or not.

Better never to have met you in my dream than to
wake and reach for hands that are not there.

I really had it when i have to see/face you
& yet you never smile or talk or sms me.
Its like everythng have gone to the drain..
Everythng changed. 2 people tht i never wanted to hate
i have to hate becuz of being bossy...
The other one, the one i treasure the most try not to hurt tht
particular person but wht i get in the end.

In every stories, there must always be an ending.
Be it a suspense/ happy/ sad/ horror/etc ending.
In life evrythng must have an ending, be it friends, buddy, special person
boyfrend etc etc... it must have an ending no matter wht.

I really do not know how long i will hold on
& stay & be strong. You hurt me twice but i ignored but now(?)
How is it(?) Or i should put it these way: How is our friendship going to last(?)
And how long are our friendship going to last(?)
these is the only 2 qn i want to ask you, my _ _ _
Should i be happy or sad or wht(?)

2010-01-04T20:56:00.002+08:00

Hey in a rush to sleep soon i guess.. sleepy giler..
the day before schl reopnes did not sleep
the whole night. and furthermore did not
eat during recess just now and had cca till 6pm just nw..
and when i was in the bus, i was sleeping with my eyes open
and i am having a headache....:(

Going be busy ths few weeks cuz of cca fair...
short post for now.. i thnk my blog going to be dead..
i wont be updating often
cuz mom wont let use comp tht often only on weekends or once/twice a
weekk... how sad sia.. but nehmind..

most of the subjects dis year i am not with my frends..
i mean the teachers.. they shld know..
sad lorh!!:(

2010-01-02T15:02:00.003+08:00

I swear i love ths girl...
she is pretty ah...
ookay saw her on thursady at lot 1..
cool or wht? its been a long time
since i met her and finally i can meet her..
she is now more pretty and cuter...
She is my best frend since primary schl..
since we were in pri 1-5 we were in the same class..
but only p6, we different class.. our class are just next to each other...
i rmeber when p5 me and adilla was 2nd in class..
with the same overall marks....

there is more, i love her so much..
i also love fitriah, maisarah, almaida and syahfurah!!(:

2010-01-02T14:32:00.002+08:00

pictures of countdown and singapore idol on 27
at the indoor stadium, i i will upload it as soon as possible...
a lot of resolutions ths year and i am
so gonna try hard to accomplish all of it...

my last day of 2009 was a blast..
i am so sure tht i am never going to frget it...
Okay basically going off soon at 3 or 3.30 to rebond hair..
okay nw i am going to write who send me 2010 msg...

so here it goes...
1) Sister, Zuhana:
- Happy new year 2010 2 all.Hope dat tis yr will b better
than d years b4 n all ur wishes cum true...Enjoy devening and take good care.
See you guys real soon. Lotsa love, hugs n kisses frm zuhana.

2)Sister, Zuhana:
- When the mid-nite bell rings tonight
Let it signify a new and better things 4 u.
Let it signify a realisation of all things you wish 4.
Let it signify a year of courage and believes.
Wishing u a very very very prosperous 2010.

3)Friend, Lim Zhen Wei:
- Happy New Year!!

4) Friend, R:
- Happy new year, guys! Enjoy the new year! Loves!(:

5) Sister, Nabila:
-hey there happy new year 2 all of you hope all of you u have a fun time.
may all that you wish fr come true.. Enjoy!!!

Thanks guys.....!!(: love you guys a lot..
and there is one special person tht i will
never reveals the name out. cuz
tht person meant a lot to me....

2009-12-31T00:12:00.002+08:00

Hey there... i guess someone really make my day on tuesday and
today at exactly 1200am..
to that someone thank you so much and because of tht
on tuesday i slept with a smile on my face..
wont be sleepin t0nite.. watching man utd vs wigan at
4.00 am til 6.00am.. gonna wake up early to buy poa books and stuffs fr schl..
then going to head down to gp..
tht special person shld know why..

actuallly was supposed to go countdown...
but i guess i am too lazy to go...
see how first lah, if i am not lazy might be going
and if nt staying at home..
to liana amirah and syuhaidah thx fr the place i asked..
but i dunt need it anymre..i alr got someone special tht can make
me smile every now and then, btw thx 3 of you guys...

2010 coming in less thn 23 hours...
haha, there will be absoulutely new resolutions and
of course a change in me..

will be rebonding my hair tml or friday, see how..
haha, going jb on sat
and making passport on saturday,too....
a lot of events.. currently watching wwe and
doing assignments..
so good right!!???

2009-12-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

Does crying and making me scream helps!!(??)
i need a space/ place for me to scream and
cry can anybody tell me where??

2009-12-27T00:51:00.003+08:00

2days back my eyes was pain... i cried before i sleep..
and the first drop was on my left eyes.. so it means tht
i was sad and pain..i really do not know..

tml is the day.. going to sg indoor stadium with sister
to watch the sg idol.. hope tht can met up with haziqah and finaa
tml there, haha(random) btw thx haziqah for always being there for me..

Nur Nazirah today is a good girl..
she does her assignments...
she have done completing el summary,
composition and situaitional writting..
so far i have done completing both maths,
chemistry, half of physics(SUCKS much) and
english all completed except book talk..
yeah i am only left with book talk and review and a few
physics qn and i am done...ywah.....

okay, sms with finaa and zhen wei yesterday..
fun lots.. haha.. currently blogging...
blog hopping and facebook.. commenting conroy status..
haha.. few days back his name didnt appear at my
notifications at all but now his name every now and then
appear at my notifications board..
sometime he is really funny lor so does zhen wei..

D, without you i can still laugh and smile..
without you my life is still complete and
without you i am still alive..
i might not be used to not sms you but i'll try...
not tht i have found someone tht can cheer me up..
but i want you to chnage tht is all..
if you chnge thn myb i can chnge too..
schl is starting in days time, and i hope by the time
you will chnged/...
my life now i said is complete, but if you
were to enter my life again, it would be
suoer complete..
with all ur jokes and funny stuff tht make me laugh
like hell you really complete me..
but now you are in singapore yet
you are like ths.. can i say i give up on you(?)
i just hope as time past, we will be like before..
tht is the only one and last thng i asked of you...:)

with much love nazirah..
nights!!(=
its been a long time since i sand you a goodnight msg
which i used to send to you every night!!:(

2009-12-26T15:04:00.003+08:00

Hey there.. currently watching videos and
facebook.. just finished chatting with my
primary friend which is also my secondary
friend, Zhen wei.. Chatted for like 1hr (++) not sure..
enjoy chatting with him.. I miss my darling, Adilla
since zhen wei just mention her name minutes ago..

We really remembereed each other..
although its like 2years we didnt go out and meet..
i hope tht me and adilla will go out sometime
myb with zhen wei to play(sports activity)
we reunite again.. that will be super fun..
few days back chatted with adilla and now zhen wei..
before we 3 can be said quite close, only after
we are in the secondary life we didnt meet each other often..

My 2010 resolution is to meet and reunite with
zhen wei and adilla , haha.. will tht happen(?)
just wait and see...

currently nothng to do.. since mom is going out soon and im not following..
might be alone at home today..

yesterday was unbelievable, i slept at 5am
and woke up at 11.25am.. wow, only a few hours of sleep..
the waether seems dark, its going to rain soon haha..
at night will describe wht happened
tht alomost make me want to cry, oosshh!!!
i cannot type anymore, cuz i dunt want to cry!!:(

2009-12-25T21:55:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas all!!!(:
I really need you!!(:
but everytime i sms you i never get a single reply!!!:(
no more sad moments.. 2010 a new resolutions for me..
and next year i will live my life to the fullest..

Haziqah i miss you, she is always there for me..
although i just met with her yesterday!!:)
She is my crying shoulder and she always lend me a shoulder to cry..

My new year resolution there is a lot..
obtw this year christmas was the BEST..
althoug stayed at home with family,
without 1st and 3rd sister..
i enjoyed ths christmas..was laughing my ass off with them..
my love ones!!(:

I really do not know.. you know now the only thng i want
to do is give you up!!!:(
but i just cannot say it to you tht i want to leave you.
can anyone say it for me to leave tht person..
i just cnt bear to say it to him..
cuz i know if i said it i will cry and tht is the
thing that i do not want to happen..

2009-12-24T23:47:00.002+08:00

See the picture above..
i've yet to recieve anything about you since monday...
i am tired of waiting.. i wonder why sometime
i wait, but n the end i will be hurt..
lately all we do is fight, is it worth it(?)
i really do not know!!:(
i'm not saying i am hoping for much..
but i want something to change and
you are acting so strange
and right now i just cant bear to let you leave and
walk out of my life..

Today= FUN GILER RABAK(TIRING)
detalis are all in haziqah's blog..
i am lazy to describe, legs are tiring beb!!
another tiring day tmr!!(:

2009-12-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

Thousand words describe everything
there is this boy who makes
me laughs and make me smiles..(:
and the way he talks give me butterflies.
Just everything about him make me happy!!(:

WOW, today Nur Nazirah Bte Matlan Post 3 times, AMAZing much(:
Okat tml i will be going ou t to meet
HZ AND thn Syuhaidah if only mom allow me to go out!!(:
Furthermore, i have not been feeling so good ths few days!!:(
So SYu and HZ if i cannot meet you guys tml, i am super sorry!!
i am not feeling tht well...
I cnnot walk for long hours or my backbone and leg
going to be pain like just now i go to lot 1 and my backbone
now hurts so does my legs!!:(

Maybe tml going to ask sis accompany me to gek poh
cuz just now never go i must no matter wht go gekpoh
by tml, cuz i wll be busy damn busy ths last few weeks before 2010!!:(

Sorry People!!:(
I am missing you guys freaking lots but i am sick!!:(
*BOO* SIck

2009-12-23T13:03:00.001+08:00

This pictures tell a thousand words!!(:
just tell me what it meant...
it have smethng tht relates to you and me!!(:
its our friendship.. How far have we gone through..
How many ups and how many downs have
we gone thrugh...!!(:
My ups with you is memorable one
but my downs with you is a nightmare!!:(

2009-12-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

Its no use chasing after you.
I am over you, sucker(*oops*)
After thinking, maybe i was too crazy abt you
when actually i can find someone nicer and better..:)
I just cannot get to sleep now..
i guess i shld stop chasing for things and
let you chase for the things tht you want(:

i guess gf the xmas gift xchange is cancel.
most of you are busy, so(?) how tell me..
i am freaking missing syuhaidah, liana, amirah, haziqah..
i wish tht ths very moment thy are in front of me..
wth wishing for too much i guess(?)

Okay so later i mean today going to gek poh with sister..
she is not working, 2nd sis...
so at least i have someone to accompany me..
tell me people when am i going to start my assignments(?)
forget it lah, lazy haha..
only left with compo and book review...

ok lah peeps, goodnights and
have a sweet dreams!!(:
will update in the afternoon later!!(:

2009-12-22T16:26:00.004+08:00

Friendships. its evrything tht i need..
you dont have to be friends with only your own
race or only girls.
friendship is meant to be mixed arnd.
we can be very close to a guy friend and it dosent mean
we have special relationship with him....
when you came to mix arnd with different people
thn u came to know wht friendship is all about(:

Guess wht(?)
one thing to describe i am bored, BORING!!
furthermore i am lazy sia to go out..
i want to go out..and my assignments not done yet..
who want to do with me(?)
seriously ths year assignments just sucks!!:)
hmm, nothng much lah.. i am planing for the xmas gift exchange
with girlfriends.. haziqah , me & amirah is okay fine with it..
we will be either do it on 24 or 25 and we will
be also riding the singapore flyer.. its only 10bucks people..
the gift no need expensive furthermore its been like almost a month
since we last met rite(?)
so before 2010 starts we spend our time tgther lah, can..
next year we will be definately ready..
if 24,25, cannot we make it on 29 how abt tht(?)
its up to you guys.. just infrm me thru sms,tagboard asap,okay(?)
love you people...

sg idol grand finale in 5 more days..
and i am going to countdown..yeah!!
bt first i must finish up my assignments
first, if not i cannot go..
anybody want to lend me ur book review haha:)

2009-12-21T22:13:00.003+08:00

i am tired thinking and thinking!:(
crying when i think abt stuff which no longer can make it alive
i have been thinking lately(:
a lot of think is in my mind..
i dunt wish to sadened you or wht..
but i just do not know where is the
promise you make to me:(
to start afresh where is it? yes i know we
had already start afresh, but why are you still giving
me the stupid attitude(:
many things change my life and i changed(:

i do not know when i want to finish up the rest of my
homework wish is left with english(booktalk,compo,report)
hai i am too lazy(:
started maths tuition today!!(: i can catch up ah..
its very simple though but i really need to
memorise the formula(:
going to do well in maths and get 75marks and above
next year, yahoo!!(:

short post for now!! nothng much happened(:

2009-12-20T19:42:00.003+08:00

Today headed down to westmall.
with syafiqah and haziqah and hz's friend..
haziqah won ticket to the sg idol grand finale on 27dec..
she got 4 tickets and i gt 4 tickets..
so 27 dec 2009 here i come..(:
hehe^^.... we screamed so lot lah..
until now my voice hurts.. i guess i have sore throat..
hahah(: but nehmind ah.. had lunch at kfc just now awesome..

Sms him today, aww i guess he is upset because if me..
i think cause i ask too many qn and keep on pestering
him to answer it.. cause just now i was freaking bored abd i
need some one to accompany me so i am not bored haha^^..
after a week of not msg-ing him, i guess
we need to slow talk and get back to normal(:

2009-12-20T10:29:00.004+08:00

Guess wht people i was supposed
to wake up at 8.20 am today but guess wht(?)
i woke 10am its like 1hr 40minutes...
and my arrangements frm 9 to 10 i cannot do it...
so i miss it..
seriously i am tired i sleep at 2am...
wow, the other day i sleep at 2 and 3am...

a lot of event happening ths month..
i am going to sg idol garnd finale,
going malaysia(?)
going countdown and
girlfriends i want to have an christmas gift exchange...
can my gf(?)
like me syu liana amirah haz the 5 of us(?)
the 5 of us exchange christmas give with one anthr..
on 24 or 25 can and the other reason is
becUse its been a long time since i met up with u guys..
okay, anythng contact me okay..
i miss the 5 of you lah so badly:(

short post for now, i am going out
bye bye people:) will edit later at night...

2009-12-19T22:38:00.003+08:00

Nothing much happen today..
today had late lunch with mom, first sister and younger sister
nothing to describe basically(:
so nothng to post actually..

One or two or three(?)
Pictures above describe mostly everything..
A long journey i have gone through.
But i never did complain anything..
i wish my journey of life is much more better...

" I love you more today than yesterday but far less han tomorrow"
cause everything changes and everything fade(!)
see the picture above(:

loving you was it the greatest or a nightmare(?)
i do not know.. because love is not truth..

to my friends syuhaidah and amirah and to my othr gf who
might alr have bf but i do not know..
" last long"
but i am telling frankly, you guys are still young
to have a relationship..
but if you are mature enuf tht is good.relationship needs
you guys to be mature and dun like one two three months break
that is wht i called "CINTA MONYET"
but frankly speaking i dont care if you have bf or not,okay..
i just want you guys to be happy(:
its still a long journey for you guys
and you guys are still young(!)

2009-12-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

First of all congrats to my sister, Nadiah. Nxt yr she able to go
to sec 5 so does her frend, good job!(:

I do not know why but i do not know why i am miserable rite now..
school is opening in a few weeks time and my tuition starts next week(:
i miss my gf a lot(: its been awhile since i last met up with
syuhaidah, liana, amirah, shahirah, neena, haniss(:
i met up with haziqah 2weeks ago...
and i am missing someone badly(:

i wish i have some entertainment now!!
bored seh(:
but now i am going to watch tv, amigos!!(:

2009-12-17T21:03:00.003+08:00

Hey there, sorry for MIA-ing for quite sometime...
now i am back, okay..hehe^^...

See the picture above(?)
there is azura, my sister(nadiah) and faith...
tmr is the release of the n-level results..
i really hope that they really get to sec 5, achieve
wht thy want and i hope to see them next year as the oldest batch
in the school... i hope tht you guys will achieve and all ur hard work pays off..

okay wht shld i say(?)
i have been doing lots of thinking ths few days..
and some things have been in my mind
and i already decide wht to do...
i hope that be you or my gf are happy of the news that
i might be telling..
going to finish up my assignments tml...:)

no matter wht is my desicion i hope you guys are okay..
i got two desicion in mind, but i have to choose only one..
myb its the best if i jus keep quiet and no need to tell
them.. so thy wont be hurt etc..myb some might be happy.:)/:(

TAGS REPLIED HERE:
Finaa: Hehe.
nAZIRAH-fINAA:lol:)

J-ULIANA: You are linked bby! [:
Nazirah-J-ULIANA: okay ty... will link you too okay:)

Amirah: hello Nz , i miss you beb
Nazirah-Amirah: hey ... its been sometime since you tag me..
haha i miss you too...see you in 17 days i guess:)

AISHAH: nazirah !(:
Nazirah-AISHAH: hey aishah!!:) will link you soon okay?

izza: heyy. tagg ! imy pervert. anw. link me leh.
Nazirah-izza: hey, ty fr tag..will link you soon okay..
imy too lah..see you in less than 17days okay..

your sister: your sunday post got error..down with headache..not up with headache..
Nazirah-your sister: ooo..okay..thx fr spotting my mistake..hehe

Eyqa: hey ,was bloghopping and saw yr blog. link me up aites .and do tagg
Nazirah-Eyqa: hi:) oo i see... okay will link u up senior.. link me too..
i will link u when i free okay(?)

2009-12-13T17:19:00.002+08:00

A long journey with ups and downs.
I met this one guy a year back.
he changed my life and we take care of each other.
Too many sad moments and happy moments.
But one thing that i would never forget
was what he did to me. he sacrifice a lot to me
for the past months we were tgther as a friend.
I never met someone who sacrifice a lot for me.
But i guess all his sacrifice went waste becuz of me.
I thrashed it away, by hurting him few months back.
he ignored me, give me the cold shoulder.
that point of time, i changed all becuz of him.
i know smetime i feel regretted but sometime i feel i don want you to leave.
Past 16 months with you teach me a lot.
i know we took almost a month not contact-ing each othr.
But we were back to normal, not tht normal..
as we just need to get used and fit in..

But one thing that make me cry evverytime was tht i wasted
all ur effort and ur sacrifice.. That is one thing that i could
NEVER repay you back the whole of my life.
I just wish for one thing. I could do what you did to me,
sacrifice and effort.. You never wasted any of ur effort on me.
And you never wanting something in return.
The biggest thing in my life that a guy did for me
was TRUE/ SINCERE SACRIFICE AND EFFORTS.<3
that wht make me cry every single day.
I hope i could be just like you one day and
pay u efforts etc that you did to me,
although i knoe you never wanted me to pay u back<3

Today was average..
I am sick now...
I'm up with headache, flu....!!=(
out tmr with mummmy....
Last pay day of my faast today..
tml can go out and eat with mummy!!HOORAY!!*muacks*

2009-12-12T23:00:00.003+08:00

Okay see the picture above?
Okay today is Nazrulhaq birthday!!
Hey kecoh boy, msg you in the morning to wish you.
So here i am to just do it once more.
Happy 14th birthday..
may all ur wishes cometrue and be mature enuf nxt yr!!=>
Anyway just enjoy! so gonna look at you nxt yr in long pants.

Okay today headed to jp to meet the 2 sg idol finals..
and i cannot believe it that i won 4 tickets to the sg idol
grand finale.... But now i am wondering who shld i bring?
everybody is asking me to bring thm...
so idk yet ah.... okay meet hz at 1145(?)
thn slack arnd the sg idol there.
i was the 1st one to move infront thn all the crowd started to
move too, fun rite!!!
okay thn shake hand with sylvia and her autograph.
and got sezairie drawn face and his autograph....
okay aft tht slack and thn headed home arnd 3.30?
meet a lot of westwoodians (juliana, sufiah, raheja, aishah)
overall today was awesome..

Woke up at 9am today...
D, was supposed to wake me up at 8.30am
instead he woke me up at 10.43am(?wth)
thn he sms me once i never replied, asked if i woke up alr or nt?
call my prepaid fr phone i never answer.
Call me line phone too i never answered!!
so thn sms he back i woke up alr, like obviously..
but i just say ty to him to check if i wake up alr or nt...
D, must have the hard time trying to get thru me early mrning
just like wht i did to wake u up twice ths week, hehe^^

Okay had been msg-ing D oftn now,
like what we used to do before.
but i just cnt see the closeness anymore between us
anymoore.. but i promised to make our frendship like before...
had been msg-ing hom everyday frm like
2.55pm till 10+pm everyday..
he had been keeping accompany all this while...
so everyday arnd 40 till 100+ msged recieved frm him..
ths is like more msg-ed thn lst time before we fought..
haha, nehmind lah!!!
so my holiday, not sucks anymore....
* i just want us to be like before, normal*
i hope we can, yeah! suddenli i miss wht we used to do last time...

You were the only one who make me strong every single day.
You were there to make me happy, whn im down.
i know ths week i scolded u becuz i was angry at someone else..
i know u scold me back cuz u want me to calm down,
just like how u used to do before.
i do not know why i ever met such a nice guy like you in my life.
if its nt becuz of you, i am not who i am..
i got to be frank with you, i shouldnt have doubted you.
you treated me very differntly, not like how u treated
ur ex or your girl classmate or my frends..
you were very gd to me, but idky i did wrong to you.

more tml, okay!!!!
i wish everythng chnge!!

2009-12-10T16:42:00.003+08:00

* Where did i go wrong this time round *

What did i do now?
i realli do not want to be kept in the dark.
You appearing in my life, everything
changes and i hope to better but why it happened again now.
I really need to know.
I do not want to waste any more cry for you,
its hurtful and you never appreciate it.

Things get better through whtever.
If i fall i would want you to catch me
I had enuf,
Dont give up, thts wht you told me.
I do not know if i could be firm now.
I do not know what is the RIGHT DESCION
i should make....
I never want to give up for you,
i really need sometime alone.
Please do not contact me

I need a shoulder to cry and
a ear to lend now...
But not you, i am sorry
i need time alone and sorry if i do not
reply your sms or calls.

2009-12-09T18:12:00.000+08:00

2009-12-08T00:48:00.005+08:00

Memories in mind..
2 ladies in photo who are always behind
me no matter what, caring for me!!
And to say this to them tahnk you,
I LOVE YOU GUYS & I MISS YOU GUYS FREAKING
damn a lot!!=> hope to meet up soon!!

hey there, wondering what am i doing at this time?
its like already 12.50am and i am not asleep.
I have been having insomnia.I cnt sleep at night and
only able to sleep in the afternoon=<..
Okay now currently not using usual comp.
Now inside room using sister lappy, how good...

Now a proper post which i usual express my feelings
in every post i wrote.

You thought me this and that,
You thought me not to hope for something that
might not happened.
But tell me will there be mirCLES happening between
our friendship?

You only need me when you think you need it.
You throw me away when you dont think you want me.
What do you treat me as.
Friends are giving me standard problems.
Yes i know its difficult, but have you ever given me the
chance and tell you wht i think,
NO!! you didnt you inly think of yourselves.
Its the same standard you gave me every month,
Hai, i am fourteen and next year fifteen.
If things wont change idm.
I will only concentrate on my studies.

Tell me something

2009-12-07T22:38:00.003+08:00

Everything changes now.
Hey readers, i am back.
Sorry for not updating this few days,
had been rather busy and not in the mood to update.
WOn't be updating so often now, okay. WIll Be MIA-ing.
a lot of things have to be done by this week.

Last week a lot of things happened wont elaborate.
Today woke up at 4+ am to start my fast.
Pay back my fast, lah.(6days)
then sleep back at 6am.
Woke up at 8 almost 9.
See my phone to see what time is it.
And a few more minutes to 9 or can say in 30 sec to 9am.

took my line handphone, then called D
to wake him up as he told me too the night before.
i had difficulty calling him as he wont pick up my calls.
Called him 4 times and msg-ed him twice.
then he msg me back, he woke up already.
WOW!! my 2nd time woke him up but this is the toughest.
okay whtever, SKIP ah!!!
today was basically average lah.
nothing much happened... so nothing to say!!

Watched SEA games at 4pm jux now.
Singapore VS Mynmar
2-1( Singapore won)
I was screaming like mad women watching it, so stressful lah!!
=>. okay i am done here.
Sorry if its boring, nothng to post.

You tell me, am i expecting
too much from you?!
What should i do?
Are you a perfect stranger now to me?

2009-12-01T16:46:00.002+08:00

I miss ths group of people:
1) Girlfriend ku
2) 3 Boys(zul, faiz, nazrul)
3) my junior
4) my senior(kelly, azura, faith,nadiah)
5) 2A boys kecohness
6) my classmate

Pictures of them are on top so take a look.
I miss that so much lah. hope to see them soon.

Happy 14th birthday Adli(2c)
Happy Birthday in Advanced Crysatl, enjoy ur day!!

2009-11-30T22:05:00.005+08:00

Below are the picture of my JUNIOR, that
i MISS like so badly so let me name them.

1) there is Atiqah
2) Izza
3) Syara Feyna
4) Meera Afini
5) Finaa

I badly miss my junior lah.
hope to see them pretty soon...

Life have been rather average ths week.
class bbq so excited can see my classmate lah...
like finally and long time didnt see them.

going to get my new hp on 12 december.
going to rebond my fringe on 15 december.
going malaysia soon.
going to renew my passport after 15 december
going to start my maths tuition on 21 december (excited)
going to do all my assignments by this week.
going by books soon.
and a lot more.
that have to be done by the end of december.

You stabbed/killed me with a knife yesterday. causing
me to lose a lot of blood.
i thought i was dead at that moment of time,
but i did not i am still alive.
i lost my blood for you but i will still love you.

D coach me with my maths yesterday thru sms
and sms a lot with him, we r okay i guess.. fun msg-ing him
yesterday and today in the morning.

2009-11-29T19:42:00.002+08:00

Been like 2days didnt update and i am sorry.
hmm long post heere, i think idk...

27.11.09:
Hari Raya Haji headed to Both Grandma House
One At Jurong West St 81
And Then other one At Tamppiness.
Bla2 Take picture, and will upload it AT FB.
nothing much happen, but totally laugh a lot with
crazy uncles.

28.11.2009:
Woke up at 10.20am
and do stuff and then bath
and then went out with sister, Hidayah.
Cabbed diwn to Jp to do UOB Card fr sister, Nadiah.
Then arnd 4 trained down to orchard.
First we went to Takashumaya, then to Wisma
And then to tangs, to Far East Plaza
and then to tangs and then to taka/wisma
and then lastly to ION orchard.
Then we trained home arnd 10.30pm.
we reached home arnd 11.30pm.
I bought biker jacket, 2 pairs of shoes
And one shirt.
And of cuz my teddy bear.
Had fun but then tiring. Was a blast.
Ok then had a great sleep cuz i was tired ah...:)

29.11.2009:
Happy Birthday Haniss.
Sorry for the posy. I was just throwing my anger when i
saw wht u said at ur post and idw anymore fights,
Just let bygones be bygones.

Then woke up at 8.45am
talk to sister.
Both suster hidayah and nadiah were off to work left me alone.
didnt had breakfast today.
Took a bath at 9.55am
and get ready today, wpre a long skirt
a shirt covered with biker jacket.
Then took 172 and met with Syahfurah at sunshine bus stop,
Then we headed to madrasah with our home clothes
to take our report book.
saw my fav.ustazah today my ft so happy ah
hehe^^....
Got 5th in class this year.
Every year cobfirm get 5th in class at madrasah.
i want get 3rd cannot.
Only last year i get 4th, gonna work hard.

Nothing much happen, updated today so wont be updatin
so often ths time, gonna finish up with assignments..
Going to get D to help me with assignments thru
sms or msn.
toodles....

You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark grey sky,
I was changed.
In places no one will find
the feeling so deep inside.
In your eyes can see everything i hope we changed
but i am asking just too much for us to chnge.
33days not contact-ing you.AMAZING!!!=(

2009-11-26T15:08:00.003+08:00

Hey haniss, i saw what you wrote at ur post.
And sorry if this hurt you.!! But i didnt meant too
ur recent post where there is syuhaidah's name and gang.
Okay, we are nt happy when you cancel our plan,
but we r a bit angry okay. We are nt happy when u cancel our plan
which u alr knw weeks before schl holidays...
We have plan so hard fr this fr ur birthday
but u cancel. Its ur desicion i know.
But you don't have to say that maybe syuhaidah and gang
are happy whtsoever. we are not!!!
Whatever shit ur desicion is we respect, but when we ask
u or we sms you if you know tht we are going to ths place
you say you dk whtever shit..
Okay idw elaborate more, but i wht to say
dun ever judge us and say tht we r happy etc.
idk if i shld use the word guilt to you...
but whtever it is, you crushed our plan away...
Whtever ah i am tired of all this..
you can celebrate with anyone you want,
but the only thing i can say is that do not judge us,
see who ur true friends are.!!

Exactly 30days i didn't contact you which is already a month.
I wish we didnt have to do this, we are still lying to each other
when we say we want to start afresh, but NO!!
We are still lying, we are lying cuz we r still angry at each other.
Why must this happen, i just can't simply frget you just like tht.
All the memories are still inside my heart. Be it bitter or sweet.
I hope things will change soon.
Oh btw thx fr helping me in my maths although its thru sms..=)
Thank you i really do appreciate it.

2009-11-25T21:41:00.005+08:00

Hey there, life ah average...
I feel so excited on 28.11.2009
My pm got right, But sadly in less thn a month time
i will start my maths tuition..
while evrybody still enjpyingt heir holidays, i
am stuck with tuition and maths here i come again!!=)
suddenly i am excited on maths cuz i really want to do
well and score well and get like 75 marks.
Oh even beat my sis Nadiah who gets 80++ marks fr maths
seh.. Haha, will try hard and i will never give up.

Assignments:
2 Maths Done
English Compre Done
Chemistry Done
Physics done

Left with:
Compo
Situational writing &
Book review.

You are back, cool isn't it haha?!!
But wont be texting you!
I will be busy and have no time for you.
Myb aft bbq i will be going to malaysia
and going to renew my passport!!
So good, going with sister lah!!
I want go GENTING lah haha whtever.

Okay outtoday, with 3rd sis to jp and
Ten mile junction sheng siong.
Myb tml out with 2nd sis ciz she off idk,
have been going so often now.
Its just like my June holiday cool,
going finish up my hmwk toodles.

2009-11-24T18:50:00.003+08:00

I miss my June holidays.
Where my 2nd and 3rd Sister always brings me out...!!=)
Now my holidays i haev been doing the same
routine over and over again...
Now my 2nd and 3rd sis have been working
so cannot go out.
ONly Left me alone at home shit sia..
BORED!!

OKay now mrning wake up at 7am
thn bath and thn get ready and thn
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
thn 10 headed to schl meet hz at jp
and thn headed t o schl fr some stuff
so the netball and the ncc people.
Netballers were eating their breakfast
then the ncc were doing marshail arts?
thn collect $
and thn ask mirmo come down
and we lepak bt we did hmwk
and thn headed jp eat with hz and off home...

Okay short post for now!!
waiting fr sis to be back home at 10
its long

Will update when i want too..
WOnt be online at night!!=)

Why you have to give me a test.
Its difficult for me to cope
but if you were to be by my side
maybe i can cope!!=)
But now you are now by my side
anymore i can't cope.
Don't leave me!!!=(

2009-11-22T12:09:00.001+08:00

Pictures do the talking not in the mood to say anything,
Won't be online at night!!=)