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Saturday, October 31, 2009
I Am Trying My Very Best To Just Forget You. I Am, I Do Not Want To End Up Hurting Myself. Now My Heart Is Already Broken Into Hundreds Of Pieces. I AM Trying To Forget What You Say And Did To Me, But I Cannot. I Try Erasing Everything Realting To You. But My Hand, Its Just Difficult To Press The Erase Button. You May Not Know How I Am Feeling, Because You Are Not In My Position. If YOu Were At My Place, You Will Feel The Cut That I Feel Now, Because YOu Were The One Saying All The Hurt Words To Me, So To You It Might Not Be Anything. BUt To Me, It Meant A LOt. Would You Rather Believe Someone Who You Know Longer Or Someone Who You Just met. Which Is More Important. I Do Not Mind Waiting Long Enough To Get YOur Answer, Although It Takes 2 MOnths. Its All In Your Hand Because You Are The One Started It. I Promised Syuhaidah And Haziqah That I WIll Chill And Cheer Up, So I AM Trying And Getting IT Sove But Its Difficult. Neither Me NOr You Want To TAke The First Step. This Time I AM going To Be Keras Kepala And Not To Take The First Step. I AM Tired When WE FOught I Am The Only One Who Starts To APologising Not You. I Don't Care. The More You Keras Kepala The More I Am Going To Keras Kepala Its All Because Of You. I Never Wanted tHis Life, ALthough I Know That Nobody Life Is Perfect, If Its Perfect Its Not GOing To Be Fun At All. But Nobody Even Wanted A Life Of Misery.  I Wasted My Energy And Life And Time Wasting For You And Waiting For You. I Should HAve Known That You Were Just The Same As The Rest. I Thought You Were Different From Everybody Else, But Now What I Can See Is Only That You Are Nothing Special And There Is Nothing Unique In You. Labels: Wasted Friday, October 30, 2009 You Always Think That you Were Right And You Never Think About Others. Now I Am Just Doing The Same Thing You Did To Me. I Had Enough. I May Not Tell You That I Am Tired Of Everything Because I Do NOt Want To Hurt You But I Guess I Need To Now, I Am Sorry. I Would Be Grateful If You Did Not Doubt On Me And I Never Wanted To Fade For YOu But I Did, Too Many THings Change Me. I Hate It When You Call Me By My Full Name, When I Told You Not Too.. And Why Should I Lie To You? What Did I Get In Return? I Hate. What Do You Think Of This: You Were Mad At Me Because I Lied, When I Never Did. But I Am Just Doing What You Did To Me. Now You Know How It Hurts Right? I Am Never Happy Now With You Around Me. Like You Say In You : Tak Kan Happy Same Goes To Me, I Never Wanted To Fade For YOu But I Did Because Of Wht You Say. One Thing That I Would Be Grateful For Is When Someone Did Not Doubt For Me, Anymore. But You Did How ? Everything Hurt Me . Mybe Now It Is Time For Me To Say GODDBYE To You Although It Is Hard But I Am Trying. SHould I Say GOODBYE To You Or Not? What Should I Do? Should I Stop All The 14Months Of Knowing You . You Do Not Trust Me Anymore. You Trust Someone Who You Just Know. What The HEck Is This. How Am I Supposed To Decide. Or You Do Not Treasure Our Friendship From The Start. I Hate You For Now And I Am Broken Heart. What Should I Do, Is Bye The Good Time Now For YOu? Labels: Maybe Its The Time For Me To Say Thursday, October 29, 2009 .jpg) Hey there, have not been feeling so good ths past few days. I was rather moodswing and more. Seeing the sight of you,wasthought you were not the same group as me, liana you know wht i mean so keep quiet. Told yana everythng in the bus jux nw. I never felt ths way b4r. And up till now i do not know if our friendship is going to last anymre. We Have been fighting and fighting none stop i had enough. I konw you know me well and i know you well. But what is the used we know each other well if u do not trust me and u seems to trust someone else. What is the used fr me konwing you fr more than 1yr plus(?) it is like sucha waste. I thought i could hold on but i am gettin weaker and weaker every now and then. you were just getting on my nerve, i never thought i would be angry at you ths much but i guess i did now, you were the only person whom i always look frward everyday to cheer me up and make my day but now everythng fade. I never wanted to fade for you but how? You don't expect me to cry everyday becuz of you. I have always tolerate all ur nonsense but wht did i get in return? Ths is wht I get Frm Junior blog Finaa; I know you were mad at me cause i lied. But im just doing what you did to me. Now, you know how it hurts right? Serve.you.right. The same thng i experianced... i jux cnt decide. Who Would You Choose? A frend Who You Know fr More Thn 14MOnths or SOmeone Who You Know Fr 3-4 MOnths. Who? Why? When? Which? What? How? Its All In Your HAnds. But The one stressing the most is you cuz you dont trust me anymre. how sad whn i know tht , i wish i didnt exsit. Like I told yana my nightmare a seram one! Labels: It Is All Because Of You Tuesday, October 27, 2009  I Was REALLY Super Duper Feeling Down. But Then Two Person Make My Day And Not I Am Laughing My Ass Off.... I Know I Am Attached Lah BUt Haiya, Kenapa Nak Tau (?) The Person Who Make Me Hyper And Make Me Laugh My Ass Off Is: SYUHAIDAH HUSNA AND MUHD IRFAN AZALI. Thnk guys, maybe without u guys now with me I may still Be Feeling Down Like Hell Without them ah. Currently Syuhaidah Have off9.. To Irfan: You May/may not know who i am attached too. If you realli want to find out ask me i will tell you. To Syuhaidah: Diam2 Eh. Cume Aku Kau And Haziqah jerh Tau. Once Again SYUHAIDAH HUSNA AND MUHD IRFAN AZALI For So Called Cheer Me Up. Had Great Laughter With You Both. I Cried When I Write The Previous Post.Nobody Wants To be like this but some things are just fated that nobody in this world can chnge. Maybe Only We Ourselves can chnge it. Somethings still didnt meet u see sense. You keras kepala and same goes to me. If both do not want to give in thn how(?) I Am Already Tired Of Everything Happening In Me. If You Still My Friends You Know Wht To do. Now Problems are comin The Msg Are driving me nuts. MSN giler same.. School Problem. When Sleeping No PEACE:( Labels: It Is Time For Me To Know  What Is The Smile Behind It(?) Did It Meant For Something To Happened(?)Or Did This Smile Only Meant For People To Think That I Am A Happy Person(?) But All That Is Not It. I Am NEVER Happy. All I Lead Was A Miserable Life With All The Stupid Problems/ Challenge In Life. I Know I Myself Miss Being The Old Me. But Things Changed, I Am Sorry Once I Changed Its Difficult To See The Old Me Back. Surroundings Make Me Changed. I Just Miss Everythng. But I Cannot Go Back. Even If I Could, I WOuld Never Want To. I Am Already Hurt, Hurt Enough. All I Wish Was For You IDK Maybe Leave Me Alone(?) How Long Am I Supposed To Be Like This? I Cannot Take Any Longer. I Admitt Sometimes I Am Being Childish And Sometimes Ego. That Is All I Do Because I Want To See My Truest Friends. AnyBody Can Tell Me, Who Is My Truest Friends When I Need Them, And They Be There For Me? You Feel Guilt When You Leave Her, But Now What About Me? I Need Time Alone To Think Everything, The Surrounding. What I Can Say, I Cannot Promise You That I Will Be OldSelf Back. It Take Times, Like Who I Got Tell Before Once I Changed, I Changed. People Just Do Not See That I Am Putting A Lot Of Effort, To Just Be Together. But Hardly, I Failed It And I Will NEVER Wanted To Pass It, I Feel So WTH Now. Yes, You Say I Am Your Friend, And You NEVER Want To Let Me Go. But Where Is It? You Always Leave Me Alone In The Darkness, And Expecting That I Find My Own Light. But You Were Not There For Me, Wehn I Thought You Would. But Instead A Friend Who I Thought Who Would NEVER Be There For Me, Instead Is There For Me. So Now, Both Are My Friends. Who Should I Be With. When I Am ALone, You Never There For Me And Expect Me To See You As My Truest Friends(?) Everytime I Think The Distance, We Are, Idk Ah, We Are Drifting. All I Know Is That Better Do Smethng Before Everything Turns Into A Disaster. Did I Make The Right Choice(???) Labels: Am I Right This Time Round Monday, October 26, 2009  Ystd had great fun with family. A day with family was COOL... Hmm, but as y'know penat giler tkle tahan ah, NGANTUK... AND i am Do Not Have Enuf Sleep..:( Hmm, what do you treat us as? you only one us whn u thnk u need. but when u don't u throw us Away U thnk we are a paper, u crushed when u don't need it and throw away in the dustbin.? If u treat me like tht, thn i am sorry i don't know you ah... and don't ever let catch u doin tht to me... Had a lot of fun with Syuhaidah and Haziqah at JP Mcd laugh like hell and GOSSIP always..NORMAL kan? the two of thm are the most BEST FRENDS i have ever LOVE THEM... NEVER will I leave them. tml is the Subject Option so i have to decide no mattter wht Labels: Decided Friday, October 23, 2009   I feel so that i am the only one who have the desicion, it is in my hand. Now I know trying to make jux one single desicion is difficult. I do not Know If i shld take 6 or 7 subjects. It Is just driving me nuts. But soon i am going to have the answer. Are We okay? Or wht? i do not know we seems to be chatting quite well but we dk what is inside our heart. Only we know each othr heart. Argh...!!:( How sia? God Just Give me the light to shine and just find the answer. I Am Tired Living In The Darkness Please Giving Some Light To Shine. And AFter That I Can Fly Freely!!:) Labels: A Look Back A Step Forward Wednesday, October 21, 2009 I am now at Syuhaidah's House Going back home soon... Going to tell wht happened fr the past few days and it is interesting and i had lots of laughter with Syuhaidah, Haziqah, Liana and Myself..:) Update at night again gtg in a rush.. Haziqah want to go home.. Late day tml it is going to be fun.. late day means wake up later and fun time..:) I HATE seeing ur FACE at school now adays..:) Labels: fun time with GirlF Sunday, October 18, 2009 hey there... tml will be going out to Orchard with GirlF Juniors and Boys: 1) GirlF: me, syuhaidah, liana and Haziqah 2) Juniors: SyaraFina and Finaa 3) Boys: Irfan, Zulhilmi, Faiz , Nazrul - Not confirm: Fazmie and Hazim if i am not wrong!!L Hmm will be hoping to have fun with thm tml going out to watch Movie At Orchard Cathay... Hope tht be able to take a lot opf picture tml.. Meeting thm at JP tml at 11.00 and watch the movie " IMAGINE THAT " awesome!! Yesterday sleep late ah watch WWE and SOCCER!! SOccer results will be post at Onsugar Labels: A step Frward Friday, October 16, 2009  You guys are always there fr me.. You guys are the only person who i can turn too... i never thought tht i will have sucha a goood friends like u guys.. myb i am the most luckiest person ever... hmm.... thank u so much fr being there fr me ILY !!:P Hmm i want the old u back ennemy... so many thngs chnge in sucha a short tym i wonder y u chnged.. to c u chnged again it hurts, it seems like ideven know u anymre at all... Only God knows how i am feeling.. Everybody can c the chnge in u.. the Change of bad nad good... IDK wht my eyes see and thnk of u, i am jux hurt ths month is the most hatred month ever that i have come across!!:( Saturday, October 3, 2009 MOOD: bored i am totally bored today, F(D) is out and myb unable to msg me out with frnds fr idw thm to know i contacted him so wont msg him... Grandmother frm father side and everyone frm father side is comin at 6+ so goin to take a bath nw... so bored without him and i thnk amirah too will.. u knoe who i am talking abt..so jux shh.... so wont be able to update so oftn nxt 2wks exam deh... so will MIA-ing k.. will update as soon as exam is over.. going out to study with neena and amirah on monday till 7pm in schl..will be looking frward fr the day!!:) Friday, October 2, 2009  I will seriously miss many thngs.. Farewell assembly jux nw was rather emotionla fr me... was abt to cry when Karin Frm sec 5A is the representative fr the class.. fr the farewell when she cried,it makes me want to cry and i feel tht all the words she said is so touching... You know me well... and i already tell u millions of times, that if u _ _ _ your _ _ _ _ my thoughts of you will never chnge and i know tml you are going to do it.. What i can jux say, thnk wht u going to do ... Trust me it is goin to affect most people and if i see smethng on your _ _ _ _ you know wht i want to do... wht i will think of you./. ths week had been rather busy week fr me.. had been staying back since tues-thur at schl stay bk till arnd 6.40+pm mon was rather oh not in th mood to study today studied till 5 with neena and meera... next week is the week of papers... the week i am going to cry badly even now i am crying... Mostly i will cry when every paper tht i do i didnt do well put in a lot of effort and esp whn i didnt managed to do finish bt i hope it wont happened... 2 weeks of papers and 2 weeks of crying whn 3 thngs happened... You how?? Thursday, October 1, 2009 Thngs have chnged so much tht i myself could nt imagine tht i would happened.. be it with F or frends thngs and life are jux so complicated now.. I feel like giving up half way bt i wont okay.. i will still continue to strive and nt give up.. because you always told me ths F, do NOT EVER give up halfway cuz u have done so much now u want give up, WTH? i always say ths No use crying over a split milk... wht is done is done, no turning back!! As we cnt chnge th time to jux get thngs right... what we can do is to do it right, not perfect the next time NUR NAZIRAH BTE MATLAN I TRUST IT YOU CAN DO IT!! Labels: hmm |
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